Sunday, January 26, 2020

He Has Seen the Highs and Lows of Decades / Il a vu les hauts et les bas des décennies / +es, pt

He has seen the highs and lows of decades,
history's brilliance and history's stains.
Centuries too, perhaps he knows,
from the little that remains.
What he sees, he does not say,
but saves it for another day.

Il a vu les hauts et les bas des décennies,
l'éclat de l'histoire et les taches de l'histoire.
Des siècles aussi, peut-être qu'il connait,
du peu qui reste.
Ce qu'il voit, il ne le dit pas,
mais le garde pour un autre jour.

Ha visto los altibajos de décadas,
El brillo de la historia y las manchas de la historia.
Siglos también, tal vez él conoce,
de lo poco que queda.
Lo que ve, no dice,
pero lo guarda para otro día.

Ele viu os altos e baixos de décadas,
brilho da história e manchas da história.
Séculos também, talvez ele saiba,
do pouco que resta.
O que ele vê, ele não diz,
mas mantém-lo para outro dia.






Text and image © 2020 by Donald Jacobson Traxler.

Friday, January 24, 2020

Journal of a Naked Poet - III

After leaving the seminary, I remember reading the book I LEAP OVER THE WALL, by Monica Baldwin. Our cases were very different, since she had been in for 35 years, and I for a few months, but I related strongly to her story. I remember her saying that she still recited the Divine Office (Latin Psalms of the Breviarium Romanum) every day. I could easily understand and appreciate that. Reentering the secular world is a big adjustment. I gave myself a semester to readjust, and then entered San Diego City College.

SDCC (the old, downtown campus) was like a big, concrete playpen. My parents could not afford to put me through college, but they wanted me to live with them while I went. It was my habit to arrive early and attend daily Mass before my first class. I had a couple of PhDs among my teachers, among them the unforgettable Theodore Bardacke. I knew that I was fortunate. To cover my expenses, I worked as a playground supervisor and camp counselor for a Catholic charity. My grades were good, especially since I always kept a foreign language in the mix, and I only got straight As in those.

As the semesters rolled by, I focused less on my classes, and more on social life, Friday TGIFs, and drinking parties. It was largely about music, dancing (I was an excellent dancer, having taken dancing classes in lieu of gym or P. E.), and chasing girls. As to the girls, I wouldn't have known what to do with them if I had caught them.

My mother made the common motherly mistake of trying too hard to control my life, with the result that living at home became intolerable. In June of 1963 I left San Diego for San Francisco. I was traveling in a car with four school friends. We drove all night, arriving early the next morning. To me, coming from San Diego, the air felt like Alaska. We drove up to the top of Telegraph Hill, and looked down at the piers and the Bay. As I looked, I said to myself, "I'm never going back," That turned out not to be true, but I had a real adventure ahead of me.

Our goal was the Berkeley Folk Festival at the University of California. Some of us could afford to go in, but the rest, including me, had to hang around the fountain in Sproul Plaza, and hear what music we could from outside. Two of us, myself and another guy, would be staying on in SF after the Festival. I had only sixty-four dollars in my pocket, which I could not spend on non-necessities.

For a couple of days we stayed at the Chestnut Street apartment of our friend Cheryl and her mother. Then the other guy who was staying, Emil, and I got a room in a skid row hotel for two dollars a night. It reminded me of another book I had read, DOWN AND OUT IN PARIS AND LONDON, by George Orwell. After a week there, our friend Orion would be arriving, and we would all look for an apartment..

As it turned out, we took a nice, furnished five-room flat in the Outer Mission, for $98 a month. That was about $32.50 each, but I had arrived with only $64, and would have to spend something on food, so I'd have to get a job, and fast. I did.

(to be continued)

Thursday, January 23, 2020

75,000 Visits to This Blog

As I write this, we are crossing the threshold of 75,000 visits in this poetry / photography blog. Looking back to October 2016, when I started the blog, I must say that I would not have expected such a response. There are now loyal readers in many countries and on every continent except Antarctica (I'm hoping for that one, too).

The blog is still mainly poems with illustrations from my own photography. Over the years it has included disquisitions on nudity, lessons in the Udugi language, and writings on the Synoptic Problem, along with various other ruminations. Recently though, something new has appeared: my own memoirs.

Several of my friends have asked me to write memoirs (while there is still time to do so). For some years I've been resistant, just not wanting to focus on my own personal life. Now though, it seems that something has changed. Perhaps greater age has given me more perspective. Also, having lost many friends, I am increasingly aware of my own mortality. I will, therefore, pursue this project as far as I can, and I'll do it here, in this blog.

As always, I would like to thank you all for your continued interest and enthusiasm. I will try to live up to your expectations, Thank you, merci, gracias, obrigado, wadó, ꮹꮩ.






Text and image © 2020 by Donald Jacobson Traxler.

Wednesday, January 22, 2020

Journal of a Naked Poet - II

My first historical memory is the death of Franklin Delano Roosevelt. I was two and a half years old, and did not know what death was. I've written about it in several poems. My father was away, fighting in the "Pacific theater," as the military euphemistically called it. I asked my mother where Daddy was, and she told me he was fighting "the Japs." I asked her what a "Jap" was, and she showed me a monstrous figure that she had drawn with colored chalks on a small chalkboard. The casualties of war are not only the bodies of young men and women; they include the minds, the attitudes, the hearts of civilians.

I remember the rainy night in a Navy housing project in Chula Vista, California, when my father came home from the war. I have written about it in a poem or two. My parents had to shyly get reacquainted with each other. I guess they did, because after Patricia and myself, six more children were born.

There was a terrible housing shortage in 1946, and for a while my parents and my sister and I lived in a one-room converted garage. I think it was there that I experienced what I now interpret as a reincarnational flash, involving an old man in a skullcap, working with plant essences. It was the first of many, and I've written about that, too.

One day, while we were living in that garage, my mother sat cross-legged on the foot of my little bed, and started telling me about God. Of course, since she was an Irish Catholic, it was her version. At first I was excited, as she started out with "Long ago, so long ago that you can't imagine it . . . ," but when she got to the Christ part, I clearly remember thinking, "Oh no, not that old story again," and was quite disappointed. When my father came home from work and asked her what she was doing, she was singing Tantum Ergo to me (a thirteenth-century Benediction hymn by Thomas Aquinas, written in complex and erudite Latin that is difficult even for me, now). I'm sure my mother had no idea what it meant, but the melody, when combined with incense and a golden monstrance, is quite compelling. My father, who had not yet converted to Catholicism, was, I'm sure, baffled by the whole thing.

Religion, or rather spirituality, took on increasing importance in my life.  In 1953, when Stalin died, the nuns in my Catholic school told us to pray for him, because "he was a very bad man, and was surely going to hell." I dutifully did so. By the seventh or eighth grade I had developed an infatuation with the simple life of poverty of Saint Francis of Assisi. Poverty was something that I could understand: we had plenty of it.

In high school, when I became literate in Spanish, I became enamored of the mystical writings of Teresa of Ávila. I read the Imitation of Christ in Latin (my copy had belonged to San Diego's Bishop Buddy, and I still, miraculously, have it). Then, straight out of high school, I entered a Jesuit novitiate. I lasted two and a half months.

(to be continued)






Text and image © 2020 by Donald Jacobson Traxler.

Monday, January 20, 2020

Journal of a Naked Poet - I

Like many people, I was born naked. Also like many people, I was born poor. I don't know that I was born a poet, But I began writing poetry in my late teens. My tastes ran the gamut from American Transcendentalists to English Romantics. My favorite of the latter was John Keats. Of American poets, I eventually settled on Walt Whitman.

In my early college days, some of my juvenilia was published, Here are a couple of samples:


AN ANT'S ACCOUNT OF HIS OWN DEATH

by Donald C. Traxler


While I was crawling on the ground
Beneath a crumb of cake,
I heard a mighty, thunderous sound,
And the earth began to shake.
At once the sky turned black as ink;
The sun was hidden from my sight.
The last thing that I saw, I think,
Was one word--"NEOLITE."

I am dating myself here, but in 1963 everyone knew that "NEOLITE" was a brand name for shoe soles.


Here is another, from the same year:


SYMBOLS, SHAPES, AND SIGNS

by Donald C. Traxler


History began with symbols, shapes, and signs
which together made words, and the words made lines.
Xs, lines, and circles in the sand of the beach,
carvings in a cave where the tide won't reach;
scattered, scrambled wedges in baked clay bricks
were made with sharp styluses instead of sticks.
Heads and hands and crooked lines and facy snakes and birds
filled the pharoahs' tombs with pharoah-pleasing words.
In China letters came from jagged lines and hooks,
and characters were made to look the way a spider looks.
And when you come to read old Aesop's fables,
you'll find the ps are rs, the the ps are crooked tables.
And far across the ocean where the sun's so hot it boils,
the Mayas made their letters out of bas-relief gargoyles.
The Arabs of the desert use their sickles, knots, and dots
to decorate their frescoes and their alabaster pots.
History goes on with symbols, shaped, and signs
which together make words, and the words make lines.


Ah yes, those were the days. I wrote some pretty long poems, and also some long, pretty poems. But something in me will no longer allow me to do that. I guess I've become a minimalist poet, for better or for worse.

I remember, in those early college years, wondering why people couldn't walk around on the street without clothes. I just couldn't understand it. Those of us of the Asperger's persuasion tend to have a hard time with social injustice.

I was very thin in my childhood and youth. My need for body acceptance and my love of lying naked in the sun caused me to become committed to the idea of nudism / naturism. In high school, my mother had disapprovingly called me a "nudist" because I slept nude,.I still do, but the term no longer has any sting. Both in Spain and in the San Francisco Bay Area, my wife and I were in the habit of going to nude beaches, a lovely and liberating experience. I also meditated nude, and did yoga nude, even leading a group for the latter on the Internet. Nudity became an integral part of my life, both waking and sleeping.

(to be continued)














Text and images © 2020 by Donald Jacobson Traxler.

Sunday, January 19, 2020

If You Don't Like the Way I Look / Si vous n'aimez pas mon apparence / +es. pt

"If you don't like the way I look,
look the other way."
--Willie Nelson

"Si vous n'aimez pas mon apparence,
regarde de l'autre côté".

"Si no te gusta cómo me veo,
mira al otro lado".

"Se você não gosta da minha aparência,
olhe para o outro lado".






Text and image © 2020 by Donald Jacobson Traxler.

Wednesday, January 15, 2020

asgitisga / ᎠᏍᎩᏘᏍᎦ / Dream / Rêve / Sueño / Sonho

asgitisga yeliquase kanohedi ugodidi
iyusdidine. nasgi yeliquase kanohedi
tla uwasa na gesvise ale na gesvose,
aseno nasquv na gesvase.

ᎠᏍᎩᏘᏍᎦ ᏰᎵᏆᏎ ᎧᏃᎮᏗ ᎤᎪᏗᏗ
ᎢᏳᏍᏗᏗᏁ. ᎾᏍᎩ ᏰᎵᏆᏎ ᎧᏃᎮᏗ
Ꮭ ᎤᏩᏌ Ꮎ ᎨᏒᎢᏎ ᎠᎴ Ꮎ ᎨᏒᎣᏎ,
ᎠᏎᏃ ᎾᏍᏋ Ꮎ ᎨᏒᎠᏎ.

A dream can tell many
things. It can tell
not only what was and what will be,
but also what is.

Un rêve peut dire beaucoup
de choses. Ça peut dire
non seulement ce qui était et ce qui sera,
mais aussi ce qui est.

Un sueño puede decir muchas
cosas. Puede decir
no solo lo que fue y lo que será,
pero también lo que es

Um sonho pode dizer muitas
coisas. Pode dizer
não só o que foi e o que será,
mas também o que é.





Text and image © 2020 by Donald Jacobson Traxler ꮨᏺꭽꮅ.