Wednesday, January 26, 2022

Selfie - III

 

न मे द्वेषरागौ न मे लोभमोहौ

मदो नैव मे नैव मात्सर्यभावः  ।

न धर्मो न चार्थो न कामो न मोक्षः

चिदानन्दरूपः शिवोऽहम्‌ शिवोऽहम्‌  ॥ ३ ॥




na mE dvESharAgau na mE lobhamohau

mado naiva mE naiva mAtsaryabhAvaH.

na dharmo na chArtho na kAmo na mokShaH

chidAnandarUpaH shivo'ham shivo'ham.  3


I am not affected by aversion or attachment, I have neither greed nor delusion,

neither egotism nor jealousy.

I have no duty nor objects of desire nor desire itself nor liberation.

In the form of blissful consciousness, I am Shiva, I am Shiva.



Words by Adi Shankara. Translation and image Copyright © 2022 by Donald C. Traxler aka Donald Jacobson Traxler.



Selfie - II

 

न च प्राण संज्ञो न वै पञ्चवायुः

न वा सप्तधातुर्‌ न वा पञ्चकोशः ।

न वाक्पाणिपादौ न चोपस्थपायू

चिदानन्दरूपः शिवोऽहम्‌ शिवोऽहम्‌ ॥ २ ॥




na cha prANa saMgyo na vai pancha vAyuH

na vai saptadhAtur na vai panchakoshaH.

na vAk pANi pAdau na chopastha pAyU

chidAnanda rUpaH shivo'ham shivo'ham.  2


I am neither to be understood as prana nor as the five kinds of breath,

nor the seven materials nor the five sheaths;

neither am I the organs of speech, elimination, motion, grasping, or procreation.

In the form of blissful consciousness, I am Shiva, I am Shiva.


Words by Adi Shankara. Translation and image Copyright © 2022 by Donald C. Traxler aka Donald Jacobson Traxler.



Selfie - I

 



मनो बुद्धि अहंकार चित्तानि नाहं,

न च ष्रोत्र जिह्वे न च घ्राण नेत्रे.

न च व्योम भूमिर्न तेजो न वायुः

चिदानन्दरूपः षिवोऽहम्‌ षिवोऽहम्‌


mano buddhi ahaMkAra cittAni nAhaM,

na ca Srotra jihvE na ca ghrANa nEtrE,

na ca vyoma bhUmir na tEjo na vAyuH.

cidAnandarUpaH Sivo'ham, Sivo'ham.


I am neither mind nor intelligence nor ego nor memory,

neither ears nor tongue nor nose nor eyes.

Neither am I the sky nor the earth, nor fire nor wind.

In the form of blissful consciousness, I am Shiva, I am Shiva.



Words by Adi Shankara. Translation and image Copyright © 2022 by Donald C. Traxler, aka Donald Jacobson Traxler.



Monday, January 24, 2022

My Return to Film Photography - VI

 

Over the last few days I've put the Canon EOS Rebel 2000 through its paces. It has also put me through my paces. I ran two rolls of film through it: a 24-exp. roll of 400TX, and a 36-exp. roll of Fujicolor Superia X-tra ISO 400 (which I developed in b&w chemicals). I would have ended my tests after the roll of Tri-X except for one thing: in examining some of the frames with a loupe, I discovered what I at first thought were film-transport scratches. This would have meant that I could not use the camera, because you can't use a camera that scratches your film. That is why I continued my tests, running a 36-exp. roll of Fuji Superia, ISO 400 color print film through the camera as well. I'm glad I did.

I remember saying that I would never love the EOS. That, however, was before I had used it. I put it down for having a polycarbonate body, but in use, the lightness this affords is very welcome. You do, though, have to get used to this camera. For example, you can fire off single shots, or you can shoot continuously. Several times I took two or three pictures when I only wanted one. I had to remember to lift my finger.

The camera does not have a cable-release socket; you have to use the self-timer. If you use the self-timer in the "P" mode, you are not forced to use the internal flash, but if you use it in the mode that is represented by a small rectangle, you are, indeed forced to use the flash if conditions warrant it. There are a lot of little things like that to get used to. That being said, exposures and focusing are right on the money. The camera allows both aperture-priority and shutter-priority auto-exposure, and the autofocus system is the same one that Canon used on their much more expensive Elan 7 camera.

I tried different exposure modes, and the various focal lengths of the 28-80mm zoom lens, and everything worked perfectly. I would say, though, that at 80mm the negatives seemed to be a bit thinner and less contrasty.

By the time I started shooting the color film, I knew how to operate the camera, and it was a joy to use. Shooting is very fast when all you have to think about is zooming to frame the picture the way you want it. Shooting so rapidly with an SLR made me feel a bit like David Hemmings in Blow-Up. But of course, this camera didn't exist in 1966,

Anyway, to make a long story shorter, the Fuji color print film I developed in D-76 is quite usable (and I paid half what TX would have cost me). I developed it at 105°F, but I really had no idea what the time should be in D-76. I kept it in the developer for 6-1/2 minutes, but I clearly overdeveloped it somewhat. I think six minutes would have been better. Here are a few sample shots:




Just by way of comparison, here is a digital shot using the same setup and light source:



The digital image appears flat. It does not have the pronounced shadows (see the shadow behind my shoulder) or over-all depth that the film pic has. Here are a couple more:






I'll definitely be using this camera again, but preferably with real, black-and-white film.

(to be continued)


Text and images Copyright © 2022 by Donald C. Traxler aka Donald Jacobson Traxler.


Saturday, January 22, 2022

My Return to Film Photography - V

 

A couple of days ago I shot a roll of 400TX 35mm. Camera-wise, I'm in clover: I was using the Canon AE-1, which is a jewel of a camera. I'm still working on the problem of modern, artificial light sources. Apart from that, I got beautiful and consistent exposures. I was able to determine that my old Gossen Scout 2 must be set to ASA/ISO 50 instead of 400 (three stops slower) when using an LED light source.

Apparently you can't buy incandescent tungsten lightbulbs anymore--at least I didn't find any in the supermarket. I did find bulbs that have some kind of filament, but it's not the tungsten that we were used to (and that my selenium-cell light meter requires for accurate indoor readings). I took several shots with a 25W version of this type of bulb. Here is an example:




It's an improvement over LED light, but still insufficient. Shot at 1/8 sec, f4. The shadow over my shoulder is from the main light, and the shadow cast by my chin is from a mercury-vapor spiral overhead.

I also found a 65W indoor floodlight (used for recessed lighting). I'll try that when I test the Canon EOS Rebel 2000 (next instalment).

Apart from artificial lighting problems, I got excellent and consistent exposures with the AE-1. Here are some examples:








All of these shots were scanned using the Wolverine F2D, which gives only 1800 dpi. I still want to get a better film scanner, and I've picked out a good one that will also allow me to shoot with the Mamiya C33 Professional. But if I'm going to carry that beast around with me, I may need to start working out.

(to be continued)


Text and images Copyright © 2022 by Donald C. Traxler aka Donald Jacobson Traxler.


602 Mission - II

You looked girlish,

as you touched my cock

almost shyly,

knowing we were starting something

that wouldn't easily stop.

When our naked bodies entwined,

it was AC current.

We couldn't let go

as we kissed deeply,

hungry for each other,

and fell, laughing,

onto the unmade bed.


Your child,

newly walking,

came to me and hugged me.

smiling boy,

red-headed like you.




Text and image Copyright © 2022 by Donald C. Traxler aka Donald Jacobson Traxler.


Friday, January 21, 2022

602 Mission - I

 "602 Mission" does not exist. It is a conflation of 245 Leavenworth with an apartment building at 15th and Valencia, and another at 14th and Valencia. I suppose that the Vermont Hotel would figure into it, too.

But before all of those places, there was the National Hotel (or "Hotel National"), on Market Street. Then there was 225/227 Andover Street.

But "602 Mission" was on another plane entirely, and it was managed by my anima.


Text Copyright © 2022 by Donald C. Traxler aka Donald Jacobson Traxler.